So, as I briefly mentioned in my previous post, I love having a full schedule. I love planning. I love feeling productive and knowing I'm doing effective in the world. So, naturally going along with that, I always have to plan new things in my life and I get all sorts of crazy ideas.
My most recent one? I'm going to start a nonprofit (aka I'm going to be poor forever). I've said for years that I would LOVE to live my life volunteering and traveling, so the other day in my Research Methods class, I decided "why not?" there's absolutely NO reason why I couldn't.
So, naturally I told my best friend about my plan and, as expected, she told me she fully supports my plans (she gets texts/messages like this all the time so she's pretty accustomed to it now), and that she'd love to help. What a great reaction right?! So, clearly instead of studying for my big exam or preparing my presentation, I obviously needed to spend the entire day planning out my nonprofit and everything about it. I blew up my best friend's Facebook all day with new ideas. So here's how it goes:
I want it to be called Sunny Days and our target group will be young adults ages 13-18 and we want to teach them how to maintain happiness in their lives through teaching them how to have a positive relationship with themselves through self love, self acceptance, and self empowerment.
I think that the best/most effective way to run this nonprofit would to be to set it up as a sort of group that meets once or twice a week for maybe 13 weeks (I came up with this idea on Monday, so all of my details are not planned out yet). Groups will be split up by age (13-15 and then 16-18) as well as gender so that we can discuss what we believe to be the most relevant topics in the adolescents lives as well as making sure that all participants feel comfortable with their group. Each week, we will talk about a specific topic. Starting with what I believe to be the most important, self love.
This idea is something I'm REALLY passionate about. I used to be very down on myself, and I was absolutely my own worst enemy. I had the worst worst worst negative self talk. It was awful, but for some reason, this is how I lived my life. One day, I realized how awful this was for my mental health. I used to beat myself up. I went to the gym 5 hours a day so I wouldn't be fat, I yelled at myself, I was just awful. I decided that I needed change. I stopped going to the gym almost all together. I made myself put on weight because what is there to be afraid about? I've gained 20 pounds since then. It's been a little over a year now and it was the hardest thing I've ever done. I have no words for all the tears that I shed hating myself. But, a little over a year later, I love myself. I'm not afraid to say it anymore. I love my body, I love myself, and I accept myself. I've finally realized that I'm enough. And I don't have to just say it anymore, I really feel these things.
It breaks my heart how difficult it is in this society to love ourselves. It should be the number one thing we all know how to do, but instead we just tear ourselves down and pride ourselves on that. Who's life is worse?? It's awful. And I would love nothing more than to spend my life changing this thought process and teaching people it's not just okay to love ourselves, but that we SHOULD love ourselves.
Your relationship with yourself is the most important in your life.
You are enough.
Accept yourself.
Love yourself.
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